I really do love life but what the hell.
I've lost my only friend in state my school is dead and I had a brush with nightshade poisoning. So I guess its not all that bad but Im still pretty lonely and upset.
Im my younger sisters new I dont want to go alone so I guess youll have to do friend. As usual in life I am again spending my saturday night at home by myself with nothing to do.
A gourment candy shop opened in town and it's really cheap so I can't wait for payday so I can go buy snacks and hopefully the doll that was there is still there. (a 80$ doll for 25$ whos gonna turn that down?)

Spike has a girlfriend, a black stray cat so now its a battle to keep him inside. The school had to give my chicken away for slaughter so I'm sad. Mom thinks I should go to youth and leaders with my sister so I can meet her friends. Oh goodie mommy gee thanks and even my dads getting in on it with: "I`m really glad you have friends Nik because alexis doesn't have any."
Thank you Dad! My gods in whatever religon you worship!
Even kids from last school year left me out of their Fieldcrest 08-09 video on youtube. They even introduced the kids they all hated but not me ARGH. WHat the hell!? Am I that much of a bitch?!


I know my life is easy and all that shit but I'm seriously depressed sorry guys kos reached her breaking point but don't worry it'll go away soon.

I DESIGNED THE EARTH DAY T-SHIRTS FOR SOME CALIFORNIA BIOLOGISTS OMG (in chat speak 0-o) SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
IM SOOOOOOOOO HAPPY I FINALLY GOT MY FIST COMMISSIONY THINGIE!

AHHHHH *FLAIL*(
AND I GET TO GO TO A CON IN JUNE HOLY SHNIKIES MANN! AND MEGUMI AND KANON ARE BOTH GOING TO CAMP WITH ME AHHHHHHHI THINK IMMA DIE OF HAPPINESSITY!

Yeah I know no one could give a fuck about my journal or my deviations well maybe 1 person. SO if anyone cares./
I snapped today I have been testing for 7:30 - 10am every morning this week my schools in fucking shambles no one knows where its headed. No one talks to me unless they want an answer to a problem. And of course everyone denies this. Fuck them.I help them Im nice to them Im positive Im energetic FUCK IT. I am so sick of it today I played a harmless joke on someone (turns out it was actually a wii and not one of those candy cases that look like one course I wasnt damaging it or sht) any normal day they would have laughed but today just to spite me they got pissed.I kept saying 'I have it I didnt know it was real.' But he ignored me! THE WHOLE TIME!
I kept saying it and saying it AND HE DIDN'T LISTEN TO ME DAMNIT.
Then he threatened to fucking sue me FUCK YOU RICH BOY. And then the kicker 'Well I dont think its funny.'
And I snapped at that of course and yelled and the room went quiet and my teacher came in and NO ONE CARED ABOUT ME. No one. Damnit if anyone else had yelled because they were upset and started crying they would have helped them. Ive seen that happen since we're all together they help each other.
NO ONE HELPED ME IM A PIECE OF SHIT. I sat there crying and no one cared not even the two teachers in the room.Not one person in that room said anything to me or tried to help me during my breakdown THEY LEFT AND WENT BACK TO WHAT THEY WERE DOING. WHAT THE FUCK.Not a single person cared,I'M SICK OF GOING OUT ON A LIMB FOR PEOPLE AND WHEN IT BREAKS GETTING KICKED BY THEM DAMNIT.
And then when Renee comes oh hes all 'im sorry alexis Im sorry."
NO YOUR NOT
Then my mom says I should go and smile for them tomorrow
FUCK THAT

I am not wasting my energy on people who don't care if I exist they can all just wash away as far as Im concerned right now.I was sitting outside and they came out and didn't know I was there!
Is it so much to ask for someone to talk to during the day?Is it soo hard for people to talk to me?! Im friendly towards them and they could give a shit instead they have to jockey for peoples time.
And Im supposed to call them FRIENDS. NO I refuse.
Its gone down hill since those two fucking darashinai onna's came! Im gone Im done tomorrows my birthday and its going to be ell on wheels at school. I am bitter at heart pissed and just want someone to talk to.But no ones around as usual no ones here for me.

YO
MORI NO IKE TACHI?
WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO BE AT OUR FAV PLACE EVERR IN THE TICK BREEDING GROUNDS (bwahahah ka bye bye I gots the bug spray)OF MORI NO IKE BWAJAJA(yes I am hyper)

*coughcough* sorry too much tea anyway c`monnnnn answer meeee!!!!!!!!*flail*

Ok yeah so i`m thinking practice makes perfect my problem.
I need a story so please give me your input!(now keep in mind this won't be uber amazing just a little thing I can enjoy.)
a.)turn a certain rp into a comic
b.)doujin(nothing bad)
c.)random genre
d.)random picture base character
e..)random theme
f.)Any ideas?